Very nice music.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1qx3r1DpLYA&NR=1 Bread: "Baby I am a-want you" with lyrics
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=THtMy57rtlE&feature=related Bread: "I’d give everything I own" with lyrics

Being in the NOW

One of my clients has a little girl, maybe about 7 yrs old.

Several days ago, I saw her. She said that she cut her foot on the coral reef, it was hurting quite bad, and she had bandaids on.

Today, I saw her again. I didn't see any bandaids, but I wanted to be "nice" so I asked her how is her foot doing? She just looked at me, smiffed.

SHE FORGOT ABOUT IT.

That was a huge lesson in how healthy children process the world and how we, adults, should too:
anything that was not important and/or painful is forgotten, and you don't bring it back, you just don't talk about it. No carrying the past around. It is all gone!

What matters is NOW.

"I will call you"

In the last several weeks, I received phone calls from about 5 (sounding relatively young) males and 1 female visiting the island who "found my number while googling on their blackberry" or whatever other gadget they were using.

They call in the last moment and then ask for massage for several people on that same day, or think they can get here in 30 mins, etc. They inquire about massage by asking me "what we guys have available," so it seems they think I am some kind of spa.

It is completely evident they have no experience in getting good massages. Seems like they go to their friends and feel free to do as they please. They spend money on some gadgets or whatever it is they spend money on, but not on people-oriented services.

They all finish their call by saying they will consult their friends and then say:
I WILL CALL YOU BACK.

And they never do. The proper way to say it is: we will talk it over and call you back if it fits our schedule.

I have enough customers to keep me busy and on some days I am totally booked and cannot squeeze anyone in. How come they don't understand - if a massage therapist is good, they are BOOKED and it is advisable to book in advance as much as possible. Yeah, if you luck out then you might luck out and get an appointmnent on the same day with a GOOD massage therapist. Maybe. Maybe not!

Life is wonderful when...

When we do what we love, i.e. offer ourselves in service to the Universe in a way that suits the particular us.

In my case, healing work. This weekend I was at a healing expo, and being around so many "colleagues" was very inspiring. I loved it. And I notice - I feel more refreshed, etc. Happiness brings good health...


Yes, there was some cookiness at the expo, as usual, the psycic readings, magic potions, and funky gadgets. Also, lots of bad massages. I watched therapists "massage" while looking around the room. That irks me. There is no attention on the client, just some hands half absently making movements on some body. That kind of touch is plain irritating to me. (I know, my mother used to do that to me and it bugged the hell out of me. Because of her, I am FULLY aware of what the difference is between awful touch and good touch.) Such absent minded touch feels so flakey and awful, it is a VIOLATION of personal space. How come people cannot tell? Also, I saw massages that I thought were dangerous, with heads bobbing, using some electric gadget do move the neck (violently) in a rocking, jarring motion. To me, it looks like it hurts, and I am sure it does, there is no way that a head can be jerked in such way at such speed. But again, some people cannot tell.

But then I learned from all that. I watched who goes for such massages. I watched the Japanese ladies go to the (young handsome Japanese) chiropractor for a "demo."I watched them watch him very very intently :) I watched who goes to the violent gadget massage therapist. I was totally amazed at the self satisfactory face of the therapist and all the jerky movements he made. I watched the therapist's body, totally contorted from the bad posture.

Then I came home and realized I have been watching myself :) I also can be vain and proud and am definitely not the best, most fluid healer this world has ever seen, and definitely not able to fix everything and anything. It was humbling to see myself in others, and that healed me from being judgemental and critical. I relaxed and had a great night sleep.

Powerful questions

Who am I, really?

And how about my life? Where is my life going?

How can I be in the present moment and become free from the habit of being stuck, esp. stuck in the past.

What is the lesson I need to learn from repeated failures. It seems to be the same thing all the time. I've had enough. How do I get over?